I facilitated two sessions of the same seminar this weekend. The presenter was the author of a book on changing the way churches approach stewardship. He expressed dismay at the low turn out we had compared to other conferences. Some of the circumstances that contributed to this low turnout were beyond my control since I didn't schedule it (on the first weekend of Spring break)... However, I was responsible for the PR and am second guessing how I could have done things differently (better).
I'm supposed to be off this week, but I have to go in and tie up a few loose ends from the seminar and set my voice mail and email to out of office. I forgot to do that on Friday. I am working on finding a way to let go of this "woulda shoulda coulda" thinking and enjoy my week off.
As I type, I'm realizing not all my anxiety this morning is from the seminar. Part of the problem is I've been so busy right up through yesterday evening, I don't have any firm plans for my time off. Part of it is I have lots of stuff to do that is not directly work related but feels like work.
Lord, help me make Sabbath time this week. It will be so easy to get caught up in all the little to do things that I will go back to work next week just as tired as I am today. Pour your Spirit of peace in over and through me Lord. Keep me close to you. Amen.